at last..

at last.. blogging.. long time since my last entry :)
MISS you much my blog hhaha

My school life went so fast this day.. and tiring of course :(
many course,test and assignment waiting >< just feel tired but must GO ON! :D

anyway, Love life hmm.. so much to tell..so much to share :)
some good some sad.. hahha
finally found myself stuck in one person oneGUY..
but still, no sign of him interested in me..which is SAD
my heart break up to pieces each second..
I feel he is my hubby, my love :)
I like him I adore him
since 8th grade btw, hhhaa

the way he smile, he speak, he text, he write the lyrics, he sit, he walk, he jokes
I <3 it...
as much as I like him in the first time..

sigh* just hope he can be mine at last! :)
hwaiting

save you by simple plan

You know I'm here

That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you

:)

it's not love yet..
and i do't know why but I do need you boy.. you're special to me
-baby you saranghe

i need you and i do miss you!

can't wait for you to be back to my life..

as time goes by, this shady girl only think of you

돼지 당신이 그리워

:)

kim yeong jun

무ㅜㅛㅐㅜ홈ㄴ대 everyone! - today theme was about my passion for korea..YES! it's about all the korean madness for this past 3 years :D

and this is why I DO LOVE korean things- I presented to you all Kim Yeong Jun..
1st Korean photographer i found in the Internet and have many great photo portfolio
which is really amazing! :)

this is some of his work..

SE7EN :*

you gotta know i'm fallin in love ,you're the one who i fall in this world
cause i know we better together..
they call me se se se seven..you're he he he heaven ♥
"girl i do do adore.." ~how sweet :) hmm

~see the wind crossing me...
the hat that i wear.. to put me unknown to you..

naega wae dangsin-eul mannaseo

just by my name (fate)
~how i wish i can change my name..
babo jeolleumbal-i ileum :(

the fabulous possession♥

remember me?

the one laughing with you..
the one smiling with you..
the one crying with you..
the one sitting with you..
the one talking with you...
the one eating with you...
the one singing with you...
the one playing with you...

do you remember me?

funs!

tired~so tired..
1. zoo was making me so much tired ><
but, i have a lot of fun today.. get to enjoyed the small roller coaster and the boom" car ^^ being a kid for a day had so much fun memory to start a new day :)

the hearts :)

-may i say that i love you :) i always do...

love and heartbeat

can you listen it..the big sound..that become bigger as you come around..
the fastest movement that your eyes can capture..
the reddest cheek you can see..

don't you know it...
as my whole body go out of control..
who's on my head? who i dream of?

the twisted excitement and fear....
for what will happen...
the biggest outtakes and giving...

the heartbeat i have...as the love has been thrown out for you to see it

don't you just get it?

i love you as much as i can...as much as my heartbeat love :)

one hundred roses~royal pirates

One hundred roses - by royal pirates

Well, if you were to be my girl,
Um, I could wait for you in the rain
With no umbrellas in my hands
I could just wait
I don't care if this is not the right time
'Cause I can't hide how I feel inside anymore
I've been waiting for you
And with this moment you'll be mine
I'll get you with my
One hundred roses
I caught you out of one hundred million ladies
I don't wanna be like any other guys out there
I wish I was special to you
My love Be my baby
I'll never let you slip away
Then I'll wave my hand with a smile on my face
When I see you miles away from me blushing
Oh how cute
You look so much more beautiful than my
I've never thought that I could be
Ridiculously in love with you
I just cant get you out of my head
My love, be my baby
I'll never let you slip away

~i wish you have fight for me that way...

sunday morning ♥

the sunday morning... get her to remember him..his present and his way to make her smile :)
don't you know that someone really miss you..really want you to make her fall in love again.. to learn how to be starstruck...like how she got hang up with the song...
~how she wants to see the rain and feel the clinging of the skin tightly in both of your hands..with his love..with him
~and how it lead her to him..to his hug...
~still found him in darkness and hear him run to her and still want to be with her..like there are no tomorrow...

like no tomorrow and she don't want to leave him.. like how she used to be..when the moment freeze..when the picture frame really don't move.. and the sunday she spent with him..entirely in his presence..and rest slowly in his moves.. and paint with the sway and the passion and that maybe just what she needs and what she see..in him..in her needs in her sunday morning :D


that's why memory are kept and picture are taken and not to be broken .... it always feels the same in her mind love :) hahaha

UFOOOo!!! for KPOP fans

ow yeahh.. I also find some new website that really gonna make kpop fans really happy..it's called ufo and it's website that based in korea and fans that want to communicate with their korean idol can give them email there and they will answer it!! aaaa so happy bout it(fluff fluff) but this sites use korean language and it kills me.. =( but somehow i'll find a way to use it waittt forr me hongkii oppa and taeminnn oppa :D

I'm backkk

OMG it's such a long time aq ngakk ol blogg hahha :D
miss the way blogging makes me happy :p
hehhe.. so, I guess...hari2 lburan udah dteng...
tpi bosen ding diruma teruss.. :( rsanya badan kaku smua gtu..bwaannya pingin ngemil trus...
but anyway,i got many great news many good songs especially kpop songs..:)
love rock that body song by the bLACK EYED PEAS..recently xD
i really-really have bad feelings for some person actually...they makes me feels really depressed somehow.and how much they make me really jealouss :( oww nooo
it's killing me :(
and my weight nearly drop down to 50 and it's shock me!!! i don't wanna be fat :( and i"m glad i have tips to lost weight easily... i do treadmill while singing hour each day and do basketball and sit up push up while watching the foods that i eat..especially fatty things.. yeah and it apparently workss!! yey!!

2nd day complex..enough :(

Today..I feel mix up inside,I'm happy but when I'm not outside I feel sad..I hate my them for some reason..
They always make me sad,they love me but they always kills me inside..they always tell the truth to me,eventough it destroy me..
I don't know whether I should cry anymore or not..
This thought stress me out, it's too long to be strong enough..
I love you guys but why you don't understand me..it seems that I don't belong here.. Can I escape it?..
I'm not strong enough to handle this all problem.. It's too sorrow..
And I want someone to love me,to need me so badly.. I want someone to be nice and care so much to me.. That I feel I want to live..
I wish this day..is the only day..that I would feel this way..
But,today seems so wonderful and this kind of problem make it bad..:(

the way i feel~

Why is this happening?
Why is this feeling comes again?
Why I always feel miserable here..
Why..I always feel painful when I'm in here..

This is my home,but it also where..the hell is created..
They supposed to be the people that makes me feel happy..
But they destroy me slowly..
This feeling slowly destroy me..
The pain can't hold on forever..it's killing me inside..

I don't know whom I can turn to..
I'm not a perfect person and I want to get away..
I don't want to be born like this..this is killing me..

I'm useless here... No one knows me no one understands me.. The happines never come.. Make me surrender to the pain.. Why I exist here?!?!

the 2nd excitement :D

Yeahh!! The first day of holiday.. After unas!!
Moodku excited excited!! Hahha ;p
Hri ini... Planning sie ke suramadu guyss hahha :D
With all of my beloved familyy huahuahua..kyak ap ya madura itu??
Wkwk.. So crazy to see it..hahha.. Wish me luck ya guys.. To find.. Good things in madura hahha
And for my knight wherever you are..beliaved me.. You just don't realize how precious you are for me.. :D love ya hehehhe

so this is what real..

hari ini..the first time i started this blog hehhe.. xD
tulis entri e malem2 lagi hahah sambil ndengerin i'll be hahha truly mellow mood ^^
but i like it..really make me feels good..
so,the truth of what on is i'm feeling really good now ..life never been this good really especially since the "jealousY" come hehhe xD
but now i can simply forget the feeling and look forward ^^
it's makes me really relieve to be back to the old me,the cheerful me xD
and writting this blog really helps me..to be more outspoken to everybody hehhe
When i listen to i'll be song i realize..
whenever that knight will be i'll also be there..for you...and destiny will tied us ^^

my 1st confessions

okay here we go, hmm..jujur ngak tau mau ngomong apa..the fist time doing this is so weird.. >< hahha..
but anyway..hi my name is natasha this is my second blog i guess.. blog pertamaku saudah exipered rsae hahha xD saking lamanya ngak pernah tak buka...gara2 boring soro hahha...
and now I guess i make this blog to write what in my head..and what i want other people to know and just simpy to tell what i feel..cause sometimes i can't spit it out in talking..writting is so much better huff =p
I guess this sound cheesy but,I wish that when everybody see this blog,they can see a bit of my life and what i get through and they can get something from it hahha(jadi lebay seh hahaha) and this is all for the introduction hahha xD
and now, Welcome to My life,My confessions :D