the way i feel~

Why is this happening?
Why is this feeling comes again?
Why I always feel miserable here..
Why..I always feel painful when I'm in here..

This is my home,but it also where..the hell is created..
They supposed to be the people that makes me feel happy..
But they destroy me slowly..
This feeling slowly destroy me..
The pain can't hold on forever..it's killing me inside..

I don't know whom I can turn to..
I'm not a perfect person and I want to get away..
I don't want to be born like this..this is killing me..

I'm useless here... No one knows me no one understands me.. The happines never come.. Make me surrender to the pain.. Why I exist here?!?!